My vegetarian lifestyle ♡

Hey little faeries! ♡

I thought I could tell you, how I chose to eat through the past 4 years, without meat ~

First, I'll tell you about the background and how I started.

Well, in 2011 I decided to  loose 'some' weight. I don't want to get into it too far, so I just tell you I've become anorexic at that time.. At the same time there were some scandals around meat and eggs, so I took this as an excuse to stop eating meat for the first time.

My mum accepted it but was worried, that I may don't get enough protein and such, so she started buying meat subsitutes for me.

When I was down to a weight that I liked I started to eat meat again. I don't know how that happened.

From that on there were phases were I stoped and started eating meat again and again.

In 2013, how I already mentioned in my 'Start a healthier life! ♡' post, I decided to become vegetarian. I didn't know much about it at that time and learned a lot from my boyfriend, who started being vegetarian in 2012.

It is very hard to think about all the things, so I may forgot something, but I tried my best!

So now, I want to tell you, what it means to me, when I say I'm vegetarian/pescetarian, what I still eat, what material I don't use, and so on..

♡ = I do eat/use/like/support  

~ = use sometimes/trying to avoid, but not fighting for it/I'm in conflict 

× = I don't use/eat/like/support

As for food:

♡ I still eat fish from time to time; sometimes a little more, sometimes a little less; that's why I call myself 'pescetarian' more often than saying 'vegetarian', when I eat fish, I mostly  eat salmon or prawns

× obviously I don't eat meat

♡ I do eat several meat substitutes (I may do a post about them)

♡ I do eat eggs

~ I try to drink less cow milk, cause I realized that we aren't meant to drink milk, from another living being, but I still eat things, which include milk, as well as cheese (I can't live without cheese!!)

× I try to avoid sweets with gelatin in it

~ I don't drink many juices, but I try to avoid drinking those cleared with gelatin. But when I really want to try something, I'd still drink it when gelatin is in it

♡ I do love Tofu! But unfortunately I don't eat it that often.. but I try!

♡ I eat honey, and always will since honey is one of the most healthiest things in this world

As for clothes and cosmetics:

× when I shop for cosmetics, I only buy from companies that claim to be cruelty free (all cosmetic products I still have from former times, I use up, and replace them with cruelty free ones, when I have to buy something); I don't care if they're vegan or not

♡ I do also use some apps, to get an overview about products that are cruelty free

♡ my hair dresser is a flagship salon of Paul Mitchell (which is a cruelty free line)

× I don't buy clothes which include sheep wool or angora 

×  in winter, I also don't buy coats/jackets with any sort of fur trim, since there was the scandal about several animal hair types claimed to be fake fur; also I look for ones without down feathers

Others:

~ I may have taken or currently take medicine which may be tested on animals, but my point of view is: I could have died already without medicine, so I try to help stop animal cruelty due my lifetime, which is given to me du those medicines

There are many other things in life, which can be replaced with a vegetarian/cruelty free alternative, such as pillows, furniture, household cleansers, and all those household things in general. But I'm not at this point in life yet, cause I still live with my parents and they won't change a thing for that ~

So what type of vegetarian am I?

I've honestly no idea what to call my lifestyle, since I have many vegetarian but also vegan components, as well as some ecological supporting ones.

I think I don't need a specific name for it. I eat vegetarian food sometime so I'll #vegetarian, when I eat pescetarian I'll #pescetarian, and if I bought something cruelty free I'll go #crueltyfree x3

(feel free to tell me, when you have an idea how to call it anyway xD)

Why?

People always ask vegetatrians why they don't eat meat, and why they are vegetarian, and why they do this and that.. A lot of people say, that they do it for the animals, cause they love animals more than humans. Personally, I don't see it that way, but that doesn't mean that I think there wrong. It's simply not my motive.

But honestly.. I can really tell why I live that way. It just started for me some day and I liked it, and now I identify myself with it and I actually like to do it. It's kinda fun for me.

I wouldn't even say, that anyone inspired me to do so, but there are many people out there, who do their best to introduce others to the vegetarian/vegan lifestyle and to explain, what it really means, going much further than the subject of animal cruelty.

Here's e.g. Morgan Joyce, which I found through this video without looking for it.

Other YouTubers are Cruelty Free QT's (Morgan Joyce and her mother)
Nicole Greenleaf, Ira Vampira (german) and sooo many more cute people!

I feel good the way I chose to live! ♡
Do what makes you happy!

LUSH 'Snow Fairy' shower gel ♡

Little background story:
The first time I saw the 'Snow Fairy' was on tumblr some years ago. At that time I didn't even know LUSH, so I googled the Snow Fairy. There I read that it is a litited edtion only in winter. Most of the time that means for me, that I'll never get a hand on that product. But some time later (I don't know if it was some months or years) I went peast a LUSH shop and saw the lovely pink Snow Fairy bottle in a show chase.. ON SALE! I had to buy it! (so it's the big bottle I show you now)

When I smelled it in the shop, I was in love at first! I was a lovely sweet cotton candy- like smell, which I loved!

But when I came home, I showed it my mum. For her it was too sweet, but I didn't care. When I smelled it again and again, there was a point were it reminded me to something, but I didn't know what it was at this point.

When I took my first shower with it, I suddenly knew to what it reminded me..
It was my childhood toothpaste! ;_; From that on, I wasn't happy with it anymore, cause it felt weird to shower with this.. I always thought I shower with my toothpaste ;3; It was a pity ~ So I stoped using it at that point.

In autumn last year I thought I should at least try to use it up. It just stood there on my shelf ~ And I remembered, that those products are made fron natural ingredients, so that they'll be gross at  some point ~

I used it from that point, that it wasn't a waste of money ~
I learned to deal with it scent and now I even like it. I really do! ♡

  new bottle                                                                        old bottle

I don't know why the color and the texture of the old and the new bottle are so different. I guess it is their 'age' difference ~

And I don't know, maybe I'm not good with the strong scent, but when I inhale too much of it, for example, when I finished showering, when I dry my body with a towel, I start to cough ~ I don't know!

Some weeks ago I tried to shave my legs using the shower gel, cause I always do it with shower gels instead of shaving things.

And I'm so positively surprised! It worked VERY good and.. OH FAiRYGODDESS! My legs were sooo smooth afterwards! *Q* Soo amazing!

Some people say, that their skin is very dry after using it, but I can totally disagree with it! I love to use it now! I'm even thinking about getting another big bottle for this year, til next Xmas-time ~ Maybe, maybe ~

I can really recommend this to anyone with a very strong sweet tooth, especially for cotton candy! I know that it can be too strong and too sweet scented for some people, but I absolutely love it know! ♡

LUSH website product description ♡

LUSH website 'Snow Fairy'

Thinking about getting Dreads ♡

Hey little faeries! ♡

For about 3-4 months I'm thinking about getting synthetic dreads ~

I was never a really big fan of dreads, until I heared of those synthetic dreads.

My parents would have killed me, if I had real dreads on me head O:

Some of my most inspiring idols have, had, or sometimes have dreads ♡

You will see, like I said in my 'My pink hair penchant'-Blogpost, that I really love pink hair, as well as pink and black in combination ~

http://instagram.com/miss__pudding

She does not have dreads anymore, and I far as I know, it was her own hair!

 http://instagram.com/murderotic

She has dyed her dreads black now, but it's her own hair, in combination with extensions! (right picture)

http://instagram.com/xtoxictears

I just found her YouTube channel some months ago, but I fell in love with her gothic but pink style! ♡ Sometimes she gets those synthetic dreads ~

Also lovely Fairy Cira Las Vegas had some synthetic dreads some months ago ♡

You can see some of her amazing styles in her Facebook gallery: Cira Las Vegas - Facebook 'Hair' ♡

She also has this video about how she's dying her her, than getting them braided in and talking about them (but it's in german!)

Some days ago, a lovely friend of mine told me that she's also thinking about getting dreads, and we've talked a bit about it ♡

Right now I can't do it, since I can't afford it currently, but also I'm hoping to have an intership in March, where I'm definitely not allowed to have 'crazy' hair..

But it seems like I'll get them in April though ♡

Unicorn Headband ♡ by DollyDarling

In my last post, I said I've turned into a LUSHicorn after my 'Unicorn Horn' bubble bath and I just realized that I haven't show you this amazing headband I got from DollyDarling! ♡

It is an amazing little shop I found through tumblr some day, and then I looked through her website and saw that lovely Sweets headband and fell in love! ♡

First I ordered a similar one, the Pic n Mix Deer Headband. Everything was very fast and she had sent me a mail, that my package will leave soon ~
When I got the Email that it will go out the next day, I saw the PIC N MIX UNICORN HEADBAND, which wasn't in store, when I ordered.
So I've sent her an Email and asked her, if it is possible to switch it, even though I oredered the other one.
She answered that it isn't a problem at all and that she switch it for me and that it will go out that day ~
It was sooo nice! ♡ I love that headband!
I still wish, that I could have the Deer one anyway, but I hardly could afford that one ;_;
They're both soo cute and sweet and lovely in the design ♡

I really don't regret buying it, even though there aren't many situations I can wear it ~

You should really visit her shop, as well as her Instagram ♡

LUSH 'Unicorn Horn' Bubble bar ♡ #theydoexist

Little background story:

One night I wasn't able to fall asleep and kept thinking about my new awesome LUSH-gettings ♡

So I visited the Lush website in the middle of the night and found the new category 'Valentine's Day'

I don't make a big deal out of Valentine's Day, but what I love about is all the pink stuff, the sweets, and it's the anniversary with my boyfriend now ♡

Last weekend, right after I bought it, my boyfriend and me decided to have bubble bath together. We chose the 'Unicorn Horn' which I originally bought for Valentine's Day, since it's a Valentine's Day product ~ but then I thought that's stupid and we decided to use this one ♡

And I have to say, it smells AMAZING! ♡ I looooce lavendula in any form, but in that mixure with ylang ylang.. ahh! ♡ LOVE!

The horn itself is pretty sparkly when you touch it. It's pretty 'thin' sparkle, which you can't really see in the water after crumbling ~

You simply crumble it under the running water, and there'll be bubbles immediately ♡

Also, I expected it to create more colorful water, but in my opinion it was more a mixure of any color in it, which looked a little grey-brown-ish with a litte pink shade. I guess the grey-ish color comes from the purple in the Unicorn Horn. But to me, the color didn't matter that much, so I wasn't disappointed, a lot.

Very nice was, that it is really bubbly! Sure, it is a bubble bar ;3 

To fill my bathtub it needs a pretty long time, so there was more and more bubble ♡

I can really recommend this lovely bubble bar to everyone that loves the scent of lavender ♡

It is a really stong lavender scent, so it may not be good for those, who don't like those scents ~

Here is the description of the LUSH website ♡

LUSH website 'Unicorn Horn'

I've turned into a LUSHicorn x3

Start a healthier life ♡

Hey guys! ♡

Lately I watched how many people I'm sourrounded from, especially in my family, having several problems with their health and are suffering from several diseases..

With 19 years I was already suffering from lumbago (lower back pain) and since I have my boyfriend, who's really healthy, and always talking about being healthy and eating healthy things, I started thinking about getting healthy aswell..

So it was clear: I was going to live a healthier life!
End of March, my boyfriend and me went to his former fitness studio and we got registered! 
And I have to say, it was the best decision in my life!
Eventhough, I got into hospital two months later..

I also started to eat healthier due this time!
..and I posted it on instagram to get an overview about what I eat in a day,
and also not to be able to 'cheat'

We also went back to be vegetarians at that time!
My boyfriend is at that point 36 weeks without any meat ~
I decided to be pescetarian, since I really love fish, especially salmon and shrimps, and going without it completely I wasn't able to manage in the mental state I was (and still am) ~
I also had some weak points, where I ate meat, so I'm really vegetarian/pescetarian from August 1st til now!

Due the time I began to go to the gym regulary, I also started to buy lots of gym clothes, which I'm going to show you in another post ~

in conclusion:

(I don't count my hospital time in)
I feel so much better since I started to live this healthier life! And I don't regret any of the decisions I did!
I don't regret the money I spend in it, I don't regret to stand for my believes in front of my family, even though we're constantly in conflicts from that on..
As I said, it was the best decision I ever made in my life so far!
And anybody, who may be afraid of any of those steps, I promise you, you'll find your way to feel amazing!
It may not be the way I'd taken, but there is definitly one that suits you the best!
And you'll find people who support you!

As for me, I'll keep going to the gym, will stay vegetarian/pescetarian, getting into clean and healthy eating!

It makes me happy! And that's what I'm going for in future! ♡

LUSH cosmetics HAUL ♡ cruelty free and vegan ♡

Hey little faeries! ♡

Whenever I was at the gym, I went to a shopping mall near by, and there I found a LUSH shop ~

I never was a big fan of it, because of it's extreme smell in the shop.

But somehow I got over it, and after Xmas there was (and still is) a big SALE with 50% off ~

And soo.. this happened

Like I said.. Whenever I was at the gym I went to the LUSH shop near by..

I normally go at least 2 to 3 times a week..

And so as you can see, I bought a bunch of stuff ^^'

I just can't resist it ;3;

I don't want to open it right now, but I'll tell you what's in it:

(from left to right)

♡ 'Magic Wand' Bubble Bar

♡ Liquid Lipstick, color 'Charm'

♡ 'Cinders' Bath Bomb

♡ 'Snow Fairy' Shower Gel (3.3 fl. oz)

(The big bottle 16.9 fl. oz I bought last winter)

♡ 'First Snow' Dusting Powder

♡ 'Snowcake' Soap

♡ 'Unicorn Horn' Bath Bomb

It's all Limited Edition and except for the 'Unicorn Horn' it's all from the holiday season.
The 'Unicorn Horn' is from the brand new upcoming Valentine's Day season ♡

I'm gonna do a seperate Blogpost to each of the items when I used it ♡

I'm thinking about buying even more things from the SALE ~
I hope I can resist..
..but I guess I don't have a chance ;_;

Have you ever tried something from LUSH?
What do you like about it? ♡

My change due 2014 ~

That's kinda like a sum up of my change through some looks from 2014 ☆ 

the leg photo represents the time I was in the hospital ~

From that on I've tried to do what makes me happy ☆

So I got my septum pierced and tried out other make ups ♡

Eventhough everyone I kinda shocked by my drastical change, I feel good!

I don't care what they think! It was the beginning of a new life, after such a  near-death experience ~

I hope 2015 will give me even more self confidence and that I can finally be happy with doing things, that make me happy ♡

My New Years Eve ♡

On New Years Eve I normally go to my grandparents place together with my parents.
Thsi year I decided not to do so, because I haven't spend that day at my own home, EVER!
My boyfriend had to work until 6pm so I had a bunch of time to clean up my room and to get ready ♡

The day before, after I was at the gym, I went shopping a bit ~ there I finally got a hand on the LUSH lipstick with 50% off ♡ at another shop I got those lashes, which was actually the "tester/show case" one, but it was the last one available so I got it with 10% off ♡

Those two things where my highlights for New Years Eve makeup ♡

I absolutely fell in love with those lashes! ♡ they're my new favorites from now on ♡

Well, so I got ready, took a shower, did my nails, dressed up and did my makeup ~

My parents left home right before my boyfruend came over. My boyfriend took a shower first and meanwhile I prepared dinner for us ♡

I guess this is the most romantic thing I've ever prepared ♡ so we ate while listening to some music (slow Michael Jackson songs, since I have a crush on him again for the past weeks ♡)

We talked a lot about funny things as well as some serious topics ~

Later, near midnight it got more and more serious and I thought maybe we should go outside to do some fireworks too. 

2014 lots of shit happened to me and I'm kinda superstitious in some things. My mum says, that we do fireworks on New Years to chase away bad ghosts for the upcoming year.. (I don't if that is why they generally do that in my country, or if its just.a family thing)

So we went over to my grandparents house (which is just across the street) where my parents and my aunt and uncle already started with the fireworks ~

I'm always hella scared, which is why I prefer to stay inside normally..

I think it's extremely dangerous those days, especially where I live.. (I've seen young boys throwing things in the subway hall way/to the stairs and such things D:)

There also crashed some glass when we left the house..

but ANYWAY, I did my thing, greeted my family for the new year, and than my boyfriend and me went back to my room to continue celebrating alone ♡

It was a nice evening/night/celebration ♡

But I felt sorry for my bestie who stayed alone at home ._.

Hope you all had a nice New Years Eve and Beginning of 2015 ♡

My Xmas month 2014 ♡

Hey little faeries!

I want to show you what I looked like on the Xmas days and which oresents I got,

and also want to tell you what was going on over all ~

First of all Saint Nikolas Day, December 6th ~

That are the presents I got from my parents and my aunt&uncle!

♡ A new pair of Nike leggins for the gym

♡ lots of chocolate

♡ and Kryolan lashes

The day itself wasn't really special so there's nothing else to tell xD

On December 24th, Christmaseve, me, my mum and my dad went to my grandparents and met my aunt and uncle ~ my boyfriend had to work so came later that day..

First we ate something all together and talked and so on.

When my boyfriend came over we unpacked our Xmas presents ♡

That's what I got that day  ♡

December 25th, "Xmas Day 1"?, my aunt and my uncle came over to my parents place where we had some cake first and later dinner together ~

If tried something diffrent with my clothes, wearing my red glittery Booo shirt  ♡

And from my aunt and my uncle I got another sports bra as well as a training towel ♡

December 26th, "Xmas Day2"?, we went to my grandparents place again ~

As always, food was the main thing! My family is obsessed with food and eating lots of food, and celebrate everything only to be able to eat lots and lots ~
This was the first year I didn't eat meat! Eventhough there were phases in the past years where I already didn't want to eat meat, I always ate it on Xmas - but not this year!

And I have to say, it was the best thing ever! It was the first year I didn't overeat, so I felt amazing sitting on the dining table, being full but in the right amount!

I was very happy after that meal, so that I could still smile afterwards!

It just tunred worse again, when my other other aunt came later, which haven't seen me in like half a year ~

So she asked me a bunch of questions, also personal things, and I became so angry! 

Like I don't even know if she realised that I was in hospital, and feeling the need, to do what ever makes me happy!

What happened with your lashes?

What are you currently doing?

Why don't you just move somewhere else to study?

What's your most unusal place to have sex?

like.. WTF?!

So stupid questions!

So I was extremely happy, when the Xmas days were finally over!

Well.. still I hope you had a good December and a nice Xmas time!