Hey guys! ♥
I'm sorry for being absent the past.. I don't know how many months it was now.. What I know is, that is was a long time ~
Many things happened in my life, most of them we're horrible or hard to deal with..
But I'm gonna tell you, later!
First I want to say, I try to do more blog posts from now on again!
I'm not sure, if I'm gonna be able to.. but I'll try!
And my blog is now 2 years old!
I started it around halloween time, my favorite 'holiday'! ♥
Well.. first start with my last year of school
Actually I don't want to talk about it, which will be explained later..
It was soo stressful, and I had to learn a lot, and eventhough we haven't had to go to school anymore for more time to learn, it was a horrible time.
I really had to get a job, but never got accepted for one, so that I always had to keep looking and writing applications and ask for a job everywhere I went to..
And learning wasn't very easy with the continueing fights and stress I have at home with my parents..
But, as you may can see in it:
I'm mentally not able to live with my parents anymore, but for moving out, you need money.. I don't have any! So no escape from it!
In the end I managed all my final exams and ended up with 2,3 (I definitely could have been better if I'd been concentrated more).
After I knew my end-grade, everything turned worse..
The day after we got our grades, I started having terrible stomache aches, which dued the whole night, so that I wasn't able to sleep..
I was so in pain and threw up again and again..
I'll keep it short, to not to make this to long..
In the afternoon, I decided I want my mum to bring me over to the hospital.
I got an operation the next evening/night, 'cause they realized, that they need to hurry.
I still can't realize it..
I could have died that night, if they would haven't done it!
I don't want to talk about every detail of what I had. It was the horriblest time and thing that I've ever experienced..
(BTW I've got a hospital phobia since I was 4 years old ~)
I may talk about it more detailed (maybe even in a video someday), but now I'm still to depressed about all what happened.
In the end it came out, that it was the stress, that destroyed my body over the past years, slowly.
Soo.. you know.. I wasn't really able to do a thing..
Beginning of August I went to Turkey with my aunt, eventhough I wasn't fully recovered from everything.
It was a nice trip, and even though I wanted it to end the last days we where there, I never wanted to go back at all.. I knew there's the real life waiting for me to manage it.
Got it some hours after I arrived by plane even ~ I wanted to get a piercing for so long!
And after all that shit that happened the months before, I decided just to do it!
but getting my lip piercing two days before
my birthday would have been very bad ~
Then I had a lot of stress again because my birthday was about to come up soon ~
And I celebrated it with some close friends
Another stressful thing, since it was kinda spontaneous O:
But there's not much to tell about at all ~
I met lovely Mimi Darko ♥ whiiiep~
Soo.. Yeah.. now you know the reason for me being inactive for so long ~
(Again sorry for those who wanted to see a new post!~)
What I'm currently doing I'm gonna tell you in another post! ♥
See ya, little faeries! ♥