I'm back! (trying to ~) and my Blogs 2nd anniversary!

Hey guys! ♥

I'm sorry for being absent the past.. I don't know how many months it was now.. What I know is, that is was a long time ~

Many things happened in my life, most of them we're horrible or hard to deal with..

But I'm gonna tell you, later!

First I want to say, I try to do more blog posts from now on again!

I'm not sure, if I'm gonna be able to.. but I'll try!

And my blog is now 2 years old!

I started it around halloween time, my favorite 'holiday'! ♥

Well.. first start with my last year of school

Actually I don't want to talk about it, which will be explained later..

It was soo stressful, and I had to learn a lot, and eventhough we haven't had to go to school anymore for more time to learn, it was a horrible time.

I really had to get a job, but never got accepted for one, so that I always had to keep looking and writing applications and ask for a job everywhere I went to..

And learning wasn't very easy with the continueing fights and stress I have at home with my parents..

But, as you may can see in it:

I'm mentally not able to live with my parents anymore, but for moving out, you need money.. I don't have any! So no escape from it!

In the end I managed all my final exams and ended up with 2,3 (I definitely could have been better if I'd been concentrated more).

After I knew my end-grade, everything turned worse..

The day after we got our grades, I started having terrible stomache aches, which dued the whole night, so that I wasn't able to sleep..

I was so in pain and threw up again and again..

I'll keep it short, to not to make this to long..

In the afternoon, I decided I want my mum to bring me over to the hospital.

I got an operation the next evening/night, 'cause they realized, that they need to hurry.

I still can't realize it..

I could have died that night, if they would haven't done it!

I don't want to talk about every detail of what I had. It was the horriblest time and thing that I've ever experienced..

(BTW I've got a hospital phobia since I was 4 years old ~)

I may talk about it more detailed (maybe even in a video someday), but now I'm still to depressed about all what happened.

In the end it came out, that it was the stress, that destroyed my body over the past years, slowly.

Soo.. you know.. I wasn't really able to do a thing..

Beginning of August I went to Turkey with my aunt, eventhough I wasn't fully recovered from everything.

It was a nice trip, and even though I wanted it to end the last days we where there, I never wanted to go back at all.. I knew there's the real life waiting for me to manage it.

When I came back I just decided to get my septum pierced!
Got it some hours after I arrived by plane even ~ I wanted to get a piercing for so long!
And after all that shit that happened the months before, I decided just to do it!

It's not my favorite piercing to get 
but getting my lip piercing two days before 
my birthday would have been very bad ~

Then I had a lot of stress again because my birthday was about to come up soon ~
And I celebrated it with some close friends

The Satruday after I went to Cologne with my boyfriend to visit the gamescom ~
Another stressful thing, since it was kinda spontaneous O:
But there's not much to tell about at all ~

I met lovely Mimi Darko ♥ whiiiep~

Soo.. Yeah.. now you know the reason for me being inactive for so long ~

(Again sorry for those who wanted to see a new post!~)

What I'm currently doing I'm gonna tell you in another post! ♥

See ya, little faeries! ♥

my 19th birthday

decsription follows ~

Emmas 1st Birthdayparty!

Well.. Just like I said.. we celebrated Emmas birthday!  'cause it will maybe be the last birthday of Emma we celebrate together. So I decorated her 1st Birthday party! Her mother was happy that I helped her with that and liked it the way it looked like in the end.. My boyfriend helped me 'cause I wasn't able to put decoration on top of the Closets or lamps. I was a bit stressed, but the party was good. Happy little Emma!

Emmas Birthday Celebration

 

Today, we will celebrate Emmas birthday! Well.. 'cause it will maybe be the last birthday of Emma we celebrate together, because they will move to Cologne next year, I said that I will decorate her 1st Birthday party! Her mother was happy that I helped her with that. So I went shopping after school this week to get some things. I had a plan in which kind of 'theme' I want to decorate it, but it was hard to get matchin' things.. But I got some things I'm happy about ~

 

Emmas Birthday Presents

Today is the 1st birthday of my cousins daughter Emma! She is kinda like my niece what has a special background. The story is, that my mum cares for my cousin like a mother, waht would mean that he's my brother.. So she's my niece! ;3 They even call me "aunt isa" x3 She is soo cute! little cute half asian, half german little baby x3

 

Happy Birthday! ♥

Happy Birthday Tava! ~

Yesterday was my boyfriends bithday and I thought when we don't give presents to each other I should bake a cake, like I always do for my lovelies ♥

In my opionion its the ugliest cake I ever baked, but my boyfriend liked it 'cause its made with love ♥

 

Happy Bithday! ♥

 

busy

Sorry for not posting so long!

I had many things to do and a lot of stress. And I spent the last 6 days with my boyfriend. It started on Friday with Party 1 to Saturday. Saturday I had a fight with my dad so I stayed over at his place until Sunday. On Monday we met after my doctor's appointment. And on Tuesday we went to party 2. Except for our dispute after the second party, everything went great, surprisingly. But everything is fine again and now we are even closer with eachother than before. I'm just happy!

Charlys birthday party coordinate

Wasn't able to take a good photo unfortunately 'cause the light and the camera was too bad.. The theme of Charlys 18th birthday party was "Oben hui, unten pfui" (don't know how to say it in english.. Maybe kinda like "Top good, bottom ugh"). I really don't like this theme -.- It's so stupid and ugly too. And I had no "bad" clothes to wear. So I only wore crushed tights with grey loose socks and my heavy boots. Wasn't perfect but I didn't care. Anyway.. I liked it a bit. I'm thinking about wearing it like this more often. ♥

Party

Friday, my best friend Väni celebrated her 18th birthday again, this time, only with her female friends. Although, most of them came late, we had fun together before we went to go dancing. We had lots of pizza and although I now it isn't good to drink different alcohol at once we drank Batida de coco with orange juice, vodka, strawberry champagne and some mix beers such as Beck's Ice. We went to the club called "Annabelles" in Berlin, Wilmersdorf. There we got two bottles prosecco, as a gift, 'cause we were 10 girls. We were the first ones who danced on the dancefloor, but because we were ten, it wasn't that embarrassing. The music was okay, and the other people in the club weren't as bad as in the last club I visited in Berlin. I must say I have noticed that I do not particularly like german parties.. For me it seems like I don't have as much fun there as I had for example in Prague or Poland. That's very pity I think. But it was a funny evening/night with the girls!

mum's birthday

 

Yesterday was my mum's birthday and we went to my favorite italian restaurant again. My boyfriend caught me from school and we drove to the restaurant together. Fortunately we weren't the last ones! xD I had spaghetti with broccoli-gorgonzola sauce he had a pizza vegetaria, and it looked awesome! ^^ And it was very delicious! It is not without reason my favorite restaurant! And as my personal highlight: I got my favorite liqueur again! ♥ It was a nice dinner. Then, we went home all together and had some more fun, and even my cousin with his little dauther came. She is soo cute! And my boyfriend decided to stay this night ♥ It was a nice birthday party and a lovely night ♥

party & brunch

Saturday, my childhood friend / best friend Väni celebrated her 18th birthday with family and some friends at her place. There was much alcohol and food, many themes to talk about and in the evening loud music and dancing. It was fun! And I saw some people I haven't seen for years. After midnight my bf caught me from her place spontaneous and we went to my place. There we drank some more alcohol, haha. It was a beautiful night! But in the morning I had to wake up early, 'cause my aunt and my uncle had planned to take me to a brunch again.. So we hadn't much time together, what was very pity.. Well, then I went to the "Black&White" turkish restaurant&cafe to have this brunch together with my aunt, my uncle and a friend of them. It was very delicious, but I wasn't able to eat much, 'cause my stomach hurted a bit this morning x.x  I even wasn't able to have a dessert! >o< But in the whole I had a nice weekend! ♥