Start a healthier life ♡

Hey guys! ♡

Lately I watched how many people I'm sourrounded from, especially in my family, having several problems with their health and are suffering from several diseases..

With 19 years I was already suffering from lumbago (lower back pain) and since I have my boyfriend, who's really healthy, and always talking about being healthy and eating healthy things, I started thinking about getting healthy aswell..

So it was clear: I was going to live a healthier life!
End of March, my boyfriend and me went to his former fitness studio and we got registered! 
And I have to say, it was the best decision in my life!
Eventhough, I got into hospital two months later..

I also started to eat healthier due this time!
..and I posted it on instagram to get an overview about what I eat in a day,
and also not to be able to 'cheat'

We also went back to be vegetarians at that time!
My boyfriend is at that point 36 weeks without any meat ~
I decided to be pescetarian, since I really love fish, especially salmon and shrimps, and going without it completely I wasn't able to manage in the mental state I was (and still am) ~
I also had some weak points, where I ate meat, so I'm really vegetarian/pescetarian from August 1st til now!

Due the time I began to go to the gym regulary, I also started to buy lots of gym clothes, which I'm going to show you in another post ~

in conclusion:

(I don't count my hospital time in)
I feel so much better since I started to live this healthier life! And I don't regret any of the decisions I did!
I don't regret the money I spend in it, I don't regret to stand for my believes in front of my family, even though we're constantly in conflicts from that on..
As I said, it was the best decision I ever made in my life so far!
And anybody, who may be afraid of any of those steps, I promise you, you'll find your way to feel amazing!
It may not be the way I'd taken, but there is definitly one that suits you the best!
And you'll find people who support you!

As for me, I'll keep going to the gym, will stay vegetarian/pescetarian, getting into clean and healthy eating!

It makes me happy! And that's what I'm going for in future! ♡

My change due 2014 ~

That's kinda like a sum up of my change through some looks from 2014 ☆ 

the leg photo represents the time I was in the hospital ~

From that on I've tried to do what makes me happy ☆

So I got my septum pierced and tried out other make ups ♡

Eventhough everyone I kinda shocked by my drastical change, I feel good!

I don't care what they think! It was the beginning of a new life, after such a  near-death experience ~

I hope 2015 will give me even more self confidence and that I can finally be happy with doing things, that make me happy ♡

My New Years Eve ♡

On New Years Eve I normally go to my grandparents place together with my parents.
Thsi year I decided not to do so, because I haven't spend that day at my own home, EVER!
My boyfriend had to work until 6pm so I had a bunch of time to clean up my room and to get ready ♡

The day before, after I was at the gym, I went shopping a bit ~ there I finally got a hand on the LUSH lipstick with 50% off ♡ at another shop I got those lashes, which was actually the "tester/show case" one, but it was the last one available so I got it with 10% off ♡

Those two things where my highlights for New Years Eve makeup ♡

I absolutely fell in love with those lashes! ♡ they're my new favorites from now on ♡

Well, so I got ready, took a shower, did my nails, dressed up and did my makeup ~

My parents left home right before my boyfruend came over. My boyfriend took a shower first and meanwhile I prepared dinner for us ♡

I guess this is the most romantic thing I've ever prepared ♡ so we ate while listening to some music (slow Michael Jackson songs, since I have a crush on him again for the past weeks ♡)

We talked a lot about funny things as well as some serious topics ~

Later, near midnight it got more and more serious and I thought maybe we should go outside to do some fireworks too. 

2014 lots of shit happened to me and I'm kinda superstitious in some things. My mum says, that we do fireworks on New Years to chase away bad ghosts for the upcoming year.. (I don't if that is why they generally do that in my country, or if its just.a family thing)

So we went over to my grandparents house (which is just across the street) where my parents and my aunt and uncle already started with the fireworks ~

I'm always hella scared, which is why I prefer to stay inside normally..

I think it's extremely dangerous those days, especially where I live.. (I've seen young boys throwing things in the subway hall way/to the stairs and such things D:)

There also crashed some glass when we left the house..

but ANYWAY, I did my thing, greeted my family for the new year, and than my boyfriend and me went back to my room to continue celebrating alone ♡

It was a nice evening/night/celebration ♡

But I felt sorry for my bestie who stayed alone at home ._.

Hope you all had a nice New Years Eve and Beginning of 2015 ♡

My Xmas month 2014 ♡

Hey little faeries!

I want to show you what I looked like on the Xmas days and which oresents I got,

and also want to tell you what was going on over all ~

First of all Saint Nikolas Day, December 6th ~

That are the presents I got from my parents and my aunt&uncle!

♡ A new pair of Nike leggins for the gym

♡ lots of chocolate

♡ and Kryolan lashes

The day itself wasn't really special so there's nothing else to tell xD

On December 24th, Christmaseve, me, my mum and my dad went to my grandparents and met my aunt and uncle ~ my boyfriend had to work so came later that day..

First we ate something all together and talked and so on.

When my boyfriend came over we unpacked our Xmas presents ♡

That's what I got that day  ♡

December 25th, "Xmas Day 1"?, my aunt and my uncle came over to my parents place where we had some cake first and later dinner together ~

If tried something diffrent with my clothes, wearing my red glittery Booo shirt  ♡

And from my aunt and my uncle I got another sports bra as well as a training towel ♡

December 26th, "Xmas Day2"?, we went to my grandparents place again ~

As always, food was the main thing! My family is obsessed with food and eating lots of food, and celebrate everything only to be able to eat lots and lots ~
This was the first year I didn't eat meat! Eventhough there were phases in the past years where I already didn't want to eat meat, I always ate it on Xmas - but not this year!

And I have to say, it was the best thing ever! It was the first year I didn't overeat, so I felt amazing sitting on the dining table, being full but in the right amount!

I was very happy after that meal, so that I could still smile afterwards!

It just tunred worse again, when my other other aunt came later, which haven't seen me in like half a year ~

So she asked me a bunch of questions, also personal things, and I became so angry! 

Like I don't even know if she realised that I was in hospital, and feeling the need, to do what ever makes me happy!

What happened with your lashes?

What are you currently doing?

Why don't you just move somewhere else to study?

What's your most unusal place to have sex?

like.. WTF?!

So stupid questions!

So I was extremely happy, when the Xmas days were finally over!

Well.. still I hope you had a good December and a nice Xmas time!

Xmas Sugar Plum Fary Makeup Tutorial ♡

Hey little faeries! ♡

I want to show you how I did this 

Xmas Sugar Plum Fairy Makeup

!! MOST OF THE iTEMS I USE iN THiS TUTORiAL ARE CRUELTY FREE, BUT NOT ALL !!

Yet I can't replace the non-cruelty free ones, cause I'm currently broke..

So I'm gonna use those up to the point where I can afford new makeup ~

And sorry for those stupid faces.. but girls, be honest, we all do it! ;3

Inspired by the beautiful ♡ mashyumaro ♡ and ♡ Adora BatBrat  ♡

Before I did anything else, I inserted my Circlelenses

First I apply concealer all around my eyes, then I use my finger to blend it out  

Rival de Loop - Natural Touch Concealer #01

After that I cover it witha compact eyeshadow and a puffy sponge

Kryolan - Eye Shadow Compact -

Next I use a thin small brush (there is no number, sorry) and a black eyeshadow, and create a kinda cat eye shape on the outer corner of my eyes.

Rimmel London - Color Rush #214 Jet Black

bh cosmetics brush

That are the brushes I have. It was a present of my mother-in-law, so I don't know where they're from.

bh cosmetics travel kit

no name red lip liner

cause yet I don't have an eyeshadow palette, I whished for one for Xmas!

Then I use this white pencil liner for my inner eye corner. I like to draw it pretty thick and not blend it out.

I also use this for my water line!

essence - white kajal pen

Because I'm used to wear eyeliner it doesn't matter to me, that I already used black eyeshadow, so I also use an liquid eyeliner all around my eye, and again create a cat eye wing on my outer eye corner.

basic concept eyeliner - black

(This is a really cheap one from some random store. It isn't even in the shops anylonger.

I will use this one up, and then change to the p2 eyeliner, or another one when I find something better)

Of course you can use whichever liner works for you the best!

Last but not least I use some Mascara on my upper and lower lashes, especially on my lower lashes!

The upper lashes I have to make black, cause they look dirty-ish white from the concealer and powder I use in the beginning. My lower lashes are pretty long, so that I like to use a lot of mascara, so that I don't have to wear "so much" lower lashes later.

essence - lash princess Volume Mascara

In the end I puted on some false lashes on the upper and the lower eye

and also some silver/white and red rhinestones all over my face.

Music: Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy from the movie Barbie in The Nutcracker (Originally by Tschaikowsky)

I hope you all had a nice Xmas! ♡

And have a happy new year!

my first YouTube Video is online!

I'm back! (trying to ~) and my Blogs 2nd anniversary!

Hey guys! ♥

I'm sorry for being absent the past.. I don't know how many months it was now.. What I know is, that is was a long time ~

Many things happened in my life, most of them we're horrible or hard to deal with..

But I'm gonna tell you, later!

First I want to say, I try to do more blog posts from now on again!

I'm not sure, if I'm gonna be able to.. but I'll try!

And my blog is now 2 years old!

I started it around halloween time, my favorite 'holiday'! ♥

Well.. first start with my last year of school

Actually I don't want to talk about it, which will be explained later..

It was soo stressful, and I had to learn a lot, and eventhough we haven't had to go to school anymore for more time to learn, it was a horrible time.

I really had to get a job, but never got accepted for one, so that I always had to keep looking and writing applications and ask for a job everywhere I went to..

And learning wasn't very easy with the continueing fights and stress I have at home with my parents..

But, as you may can see in it:

I'm mentally not able to live with my parents anymore, but for moving out, you need money.. I don't have any! So no escape from it!

In the end I managed all my final exams and ended up with 2,3 (I definitely could have been better if I'd been concentrated more).

After I knew my end-grade, everything turned worse..

The day after we got our grades, I started having terrible stomache aches, which dued the whole night, so that I wasn't able to sleep..

I was so in pain and threw up again and again..

I'll keep it short, to not to make this to long..

In the afternoon, I decided I want my mum to bring me over to the hospital.

I got an operation the next evening/night, 'cause they realized, that they need to hurry.

I still can't realize it..

I could have died that night, if they would haven't done it!

I don't want to talk about every detail of what I had. It was the horriblest time and thing that I've ever experienced..

(BTW I've got a hospital phobia since I was 4 years old ~)

I may talk about it more detailed (maybe even in a video someday), but now I'm still to depressed about all what happened.

In the end it came out, that it was the stress, that destroyed my body over the past years, slowly.

Soo.. you know.. I wasn't really able to do a thing..

Beginning of August I went to Turkey with my aunt, eventhough I wasn't fully recovered from everything.

It was a nice trip, and even though I wanted it to end the last days we where there, I never wanted to go back at all.. I knew there's the real life waiting for me to manage it.

When I came back I just decided to get my septum pierced!
Got it some hours after I arrived by plane even ~ I wanted to get a piercing for so long!
And after all that shit that happened the months before, I decided just to do it!

It's not my favorite piercing to get 
but getting my lip piercing two days before 
my birthday would have been very bad ~

Then I had a lot of stress again because my birthday was about to come up soon ~
And I celebrated it with some close friends

The Satruday after I went to Cologne with my boyfriend to visit the gamescom ~
Another stressful thing, since it was kinda spontaneous O:
But there's not much to tell about at all ~

I met lovely Mimi Darko ♥ whiiiep~

Soo.. Yeah.. now you know the reason for me being inactive for so long ~

(Again sorry for those who wanted to see a new post!~)

What I'm currently doing I'm gonna tell you in another post! ♥

See ya, little faeries! ♥

My new Smartphone! ~

Hey guys!

 

Like I already mentioned I bought a new smartphone last month and some cases for it.

 

 

 

I just love that phone!

Maybe it's just because I had so much trouble with all my former phones, but for me it's kinda luxury!

I was able to install all Apps I wanted, and take awesome quality photos!

I'm broke ~

Hey guys!

 

I just want to show you, what I bought in March 2014 and why I'm broke  ^^'

 

Neko

Angelic Pretty Melty Royal Chocolate Bag

Praliné Set

new Phone, Samsung Galaxy S4

Girugamesh concert Ticket

Tickets for gamescom Cologne for me and my boyfriend

fluffy Overknee Socks

Tea for two Pyjama

three phone cases

kinda Etagére

and a Wok-Pan

 

Well.. ^^' Don't know how to explain.. It was kinda doredom, instead of eating stuff I guess..

I just really doesn't want to learn for the exams..

 

Now I have to save money whereever I can ~

Stupid Virus D:

Hey guys!

 

Yesterday I wasn't able to use my laptop and so I couldn't write another blogpost xD

 

Yesterday morning, I started my computer, just to read a QR code for Animal Crossing..

But then..

 

 

That "GVU Trojaner" appeared on my desktop ~

I couldn't do anything, although I already knew things about that virus.

But it seemed like it was already modified to be even more aggressive..

 

First I tried to over come it by myself..

But I couldn't change anything..

So my boyfriend came along after work to try it..

 

 

He sat there until 0:30 am.. I felt so sorry.. I was too tired to stay awak the whole time, but he sat there and tried, tried, tried..

But in the end, he got it!

Well, atleast I can use it again. We're not sure, if it is really gone, but it works now again.

I guess I have to buy a new one finally xox;

 

But I'm so happy, that he was so nice to help me!

You're my hero! ♥

I'm sorry! ~

Hey guys! ♥

 

I know, it's been a long time again ^^' I'm sorry, especially for those who really waited for a new blogpost.

 

Like I already mentioned, I have lots of stress and a lack of time, since I'm in the final year of school now ~

 

Today I had my first exam, my presentation exam.

I had to prepare a lot of things for it and unfortunately I started way too late with it,

like I always do..

I finished everything yesterday evening/night x.x

 

In the following days I want to write some more blogposts again,

showing what happened the past 3 months and even further.

 

I hope, it won't be annoying to you, when I write so many posts in short time ^^'

 

I'm sorry if it will!