My New Years Eve ♡

On New Years Eve I normally go to my grandparents place together with my parents.
Thsi year I decided not to do so, because I haven't spend that day at my own home, EVER!
My boyfriend had to work until 6pm so I had a bunch of time to clean up my room and to get ready ♡

The day before, after I was at the gym, I went shopping a bit ~ there I finally got a hand on the LUSH lipstick with 50% off ♡ at another shop I got those lashes, which was actually the "tester/show case" one, but it was the last one available so I got it with 10% off ♡

Those two things where my highlights for New Years Eve makeup ♡

I absolutely fell in love with those lashes! ♡ they're my new favorites from now on ♡

Well, so I got ready, took a shower, did my nails, dressed up and did my makeup ~

My parents left home right before my boyfruend came over. My boyfriend took a shower first and meanwhile I prepared dinner for us ♡

I guess this is the most romantic thing I've ever prepared ♡ so we ate while listening to some music (slow Michael Jackson songs, since I have a crush on him again for the past weeks ♡)

We talked a lot about funny things as well as some serious topics ~

Later, near midnight it got more and more serious and I thought maybe we should go outside to do some fireworks too. 

2014 lots of shit happened to me and I'm kinda superstitious in some things. My mum says, that we do fireworks on New Years to chase away bad ghosts for the upcoming year.. (I don't if that is why they generally do that in my country, or if its just.a family thing)

So we went over to my grandparents house (which is just across the street) where my parents and my aunt and uncle already started with the fireworks ~

I'm always hella scared, which is why I prefer to stay inside normally..

I think it's extremely dangerous those days, especially where I live.. (I've seen young boys throwing things in the subway hall way/to the stairs and such things D:)

There also crashed some glass when we left the house..

but ANYWAY, I did my thing, greeted my family for the new year, and than my boyfriend and me went back to my room to continue celebrating alone ♡

It was a nice evening/night/celebration ♡

But I felt sorry for my bestie who stayed alone at home ._.

Hope you all had a nice New Years Eve and Beginning of 2015 ♡

My Xmas month 2014 ♡

Hey little faeries!

I want to show you what I looked like on the Xmas days and which oresents I got,

and also want to tell you what was going on over all ~

First of all Saint Nikolas Day, December 6th ~

That are the presents I got from my parents and my aunt&uncle!

♡ A new pair of Nike leggins for the gym

♡ lots of chocolate

♡ and Kryolan lashes

The day itself wasn't really special so there's nothing else to tell xD

On December 24th, Christmaseve, me, my mum and my dad went to my grandparents and met my aunt and uncle ~ my boyfriend had to work so came later that day..

First we ate something all together and talked and so on.

When my boyfriend came over we unpacked our Xmas presents ♡

That's what I got that day  ♡

December 25th, "Xmas Day 1"?, my aunt and my uncle came over to my parents place where we had some cake first and later dinner together ~

If tried something diffrent with my clothes, wearing my red glittery Booo shirt  ♡

And from my aunt and my uncle I got another sports bra as well as a training towel ♡

December 26th, "Xmas Day2"?, we went to my grandparents place again ~

As always, food was the main thing! My family is obsessed with food and eating lots of food, and celebrate everything only to be able to eat lots and lots ~
This was the first year I didn't eat meat! Eventhough there were phases in the past years where I already didn't want to eat meat, I always ate it on Xmas - but not this year!

And I have to say, it was the best thing ever! It was the first year I didn't overeat, so I felt amazing sitting on the dining table, being full but in the right amount!

I was very happy after that meal, so that I could still smile afterwards!

It just tunred worse again, when my other other aunt came later, which haven't seen me in like half a year ~

So she asked me a bunch of questions, also personal things, and I became so angry! 

Like I don't even know if she realised that I was in hospital, and feeling the need, to do what ever makes me happy!

What happened with your lashes?

What are you currently doing?

Why don't you just move somewhere else to study?

What's your most unusal place to have sex?

like.. WTF?!

So stupid questions!

So I was extremely happy, when the Xmas days were finally over!

Well.. still I hope you had a good December and a nice Xmas time!

Xmas Sugar Plum Fary Makeup Tutorial ♡

Hey little faeries! ♡

I want to show you how I did this 

Xmas Sugar Plum Fairy Makeup

!! MOST OF THE iTEMS I USE iN THiS TUTORiAL ARE CRUELTY FREE, BUT NOT ALL !!

Yet I can't replace the non-cruelty free ones, cause I'm currently broke..

So I'm gonna use those up to the point where I can afford new makeup ~

And sorry for those stupid faces.. but girls, be honest, we all do it! ;3

Inspired by the beautiful ♡ mashyumaro ♡ and ♡ Adora BatBrat  ♡

Before I did anything else, I inserted my Circlelenses

First I apply concealer all around my eyes, then I use my finger to blend it out  

Rival de Loop - Natural Touch Concealer #01

After that I cover it witha compact eyeshadow and a puffy sponge

Kryolan - Eye Shadow Compact -

Next I use a thin small brush (there is no number, sorry) and a black eyeshadow, and create a kinda cat eye shape on the outer corner of my eyes.

Rimmel London - Color Rush #214 Jet Black

bh cosmetics brush

That are the brushes I have. It was a present of my mother-in-law, so I don't know where they're from.

bh cosmetics travel kit

no name red lip liner

cause yet I don't have an eyeshadow palette, I whished for one for Xmas!

Then I use this white pencil liner for my inner eye corner. I like to draw it pretty thick and not blend it out.

I also use this for my water line!

essence - white kajal pen

Because I'm used to wear eyeliner it doesn't matter to me, that I already used black eyeshadow, so I also use an liquid eyeliner all around my eye, and again create a cat eye wing on my outer eye corner.

basic concept eyeliner - black

(This is a really cheap one from some random store. It isn't even in the shops anylonger.

I will use this one up, and then change to the p2 eyeliner, or another one when I find something better)

Of course you can use whichever liner works for you the best!

Last but not least I use some Mascara on my upper and lower lashes, especially on my lower lashes!

The upper lashes I have to make black, cause they look dirty-ish white from the concealer and powder I use in the beginning. My lower lashes are pretty long, so that I like to use a lot of mascara, so that I don't have to wear "so much" lower lashes later.

essence - lash princess Volume Mascara

In the end I puted on some false lashes on the upper and the lower eye

and also some silver/white and red rhinestones all over my face.

Music: Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy from the movie Barbie in The Nutcracker (Originally by Tschaikowsky)

I hope you all had a nice Xmas! ♡

And have a happy new year!

My stretched ears experience - THE ALL WRONG WAY!

Hey guys! ♥

In this post I want to show you everything about my stretched ears experience ~

It is definitely the WRONG way!! So DON'T DO THiS!!

After this post, I'll prepare another post about my ears, trying to show you, how you're supposed to do it, at least in a better way.. The opinions about "the right way" to do it vary a lot ~

In June I tried to stretch my ear lobe to 8mm/0g again, but it was much too fast!

I just pushed it through and changed to my flesh tunnel immidiately..

After this it was wracked and looked like this:

It already healed a bit, 'cause I reacted with much care right after it,

but as you can see, it has splited a bit..

But that wasn't my only fault about it..

It is a long story of wrong decisions and the wrong method..

I want to show you what happened all the way.

I started stretching my left ear lobe in September 2009, when I just turned 15

That was the point where it was already wrong..

In following I'm gonna sum up

- what I used

- what was generally wrong

Here is a picture of what I used to stretched:

1. normal sized earring with a thicker snail-part        7. 6mm/2g snail

2. needle of a regular compass                                 8. 3mm/8g snail

3. Hello Kitty safety pin                                           9. 8mm/0g snail

   4. 2mm/12g snail                                                    10. 8mm/0g tunnel

   5. 4mm/6g snail                                                     11. 6mm/2g tunnel

6. 4mm/6g tunnel                                                                          

What was wrong:

- the things I've used we're all acrylc

- I used non-piercing materials (the needle and such)

- I didn't kept it clean, never ~ nothing

- I stretched way too fast, and with way too short waiting periods

- bought the things in a shop which wasn't a piercing shop

- I did it without my parents allowence

- my lobe was shot with a gun/wasn't actual pierced

(back then when I was 4 years old)

- I skiped several sizes

The following part will explain it detailed

(I warn you, it's a long story and I include many pictures, to make it clear)

That thing in my lobe isn't even a expander snail.. It was a normal sized earring with was supposed to look like one. I tried to get the thick part through my lobe, but it didn't worked at the beginning, so I started to pull at it to stretch it out a bit more.. Somewhen it went through

Later I did that with a more heavy Hello Kitty safety pin, which had a similar size like the earring before.

And then I changed to a needle of a regular compass, the kind you use in math class.

Then, I decided to buy real stretching spirals, so I bought a white arcylic spiral..

Additionaly I have to say, that the shop where I my first ones, isn't a real piercing shop, but just sells some expanders/tapers and plugs. And they always failed to hand out the right size (what I found out years later).

So at first I asked for a 2mm/12g, but I'm pretty sure that I got a 1mm or 1.2mm/16g..

The next spiral I bought at that shop was supposed to be 3mm/8g but was a 4mm/6g -.-

 In following I had an on-off relationship with my stretched ear.. I took it off, went back to a smaler size or stretched it again ~

1mm or 1.2mm/16g

4mm/6g

1mm or 1.2mm/16g

And then I stretched the first lobe to 4mm/6g again and the second lobe hole-thing to 1mm or 1.2mm/16g..

And the first to (how I thought) 5mm (it was 6mm) and the second still 1mm or 1.2mm/16g

5mm (6mm/) and second on 3mm/14g

And then I had to take out the 3mm/14g 'cause as you can see, the inner part of the spiral went into my flesh 'cause it was a too small diameter..

You can't see it well, but I wore 5mm/4g (6mm/2g) and 1,6mm/2mm (14g/12g)

Still 5mm/4g (6mm/2g) and took out the second

Then I had to take it out immidiately 'cause my father saw my ear and asked me, if this is stretched.. And I wasn't allowed to do it and my parents never knew, so I had to take it out ~

normal earrings

4mm/6g

5mm/4g (6mm/2g)

My aunt, who also has stretched ears, gave me her 8mm/0g snail

8mm/0g snail                                     8mm/0g tunnel

My boyfriend bought me an 6mm/2g glass plug on the Tattoo Convention Berlin 2013,
which I decided to wear on my 19th birthday 

After that, I changed back to 6mm/2g tunnels only, cause I've always been afraid, that the 8mm/0g could be too much for my lobe

Back to June 2014

I took the tunnel off immidiately when I felt that something was wrong and saw that it was splited a litttle.

I cleaned it as good as I could, but only had one single piercing cleansing thing at home.

I took the jewelry out after that, and left it like this ~

I hoped that it would close, when I keep it off for some weeks/months.

It did, but not completely.

(it was around a 3mm/8g, but I'm gonna tell you this in the next post about my stretched ears ~)

I'll say it once again..

DON'T DO IT LIKE THAT!



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